Not a Great Day

Well, I was supposed to be in bed as I am supposed to be recovering from major surgery. I had my surgery on March 6, and I was back at work the first time on the 11th, again on the 12th and then again on the 13th. I know I am an idiot. I am not as invincible as I once was.

Again today I am at work and I am beginning to feel it. I am self employed and business is starting to get a bit slow. Butt in bed does not equal income so I thought I might take advantage of having to be here by trying to find a little bit of work I can do as a side line to try and supplement my losses at work.

I thought I found something that would suit me well, purchased the program so I could get "certified" to do the work and received the pounder package instead!

I am not a stupid woman and spent quite a bit if time reading into all of the information and felt the program was a legitimate work form home offer. WRONG!!! Now I suppose I will have to go through the hassle of getting a refund and all the other BS that goes along with it!

OK, I made a mistake, not the first one and not the last. But I have to ask myself this question. Why is everything a gimmick? What ever happened to good old fashioned straight forward honesty?

I am not a bad person. I don't lie or cheat. I am hardworking and I am honest with my customers. I believe in customer service and do my best to follow through with the wants and needs of my clients.

But I am finding that not many companies out there are the same. I read all of the information of what I was suppose to be getting into. Even felt a connection with the sender and her story as I am a single mom too, but alas.... I was misled.

My Children are 21, 8 and 1, until 3 years ago I was single mom and now I am in a committed relationship, but we have chosen for my significant other to be a stay at home dad. So I am the sole support of our household. I work hard for our income. I employ several people and I am responsible to see that they have a paycheck every week. It is not easy being the boss.

Until I opened up my company I was a part of a family owned business. I did my thing and everything was good. My father passed away in 2003 and my sister took over his position. All was good, no problems. She started bringing in the balance of the extended family, IE. in-laws and everything started going downhill.

About three years ago my brother in laws stole my business I spent 15 years building while I was recovering from gallbladder surgery. Since we are all family, I trusted them not to betray me, but they did.

OK, My ass was in the wringer. I move on and started over again. Now I have my own company in it's own location and I was doing great. But this year the business is very slow. I was looking for something straight forward and I feel like I got scammed. I guess if my own family can rip me off why should I expect any less from a stranger. LOL, I will request my money back, I hope I get it.

So, my day kinda sucked and I spent my day trying to accomplish something and accomplished absolutely nothing. My fault, I should have known better, there is no such thing as instant gratification.

Because He Simply Cared

Today my Aunt recited a beautiful Poem she wrote some 30 odd years ago. With her permission I feel compelled to share it in a public forum.

I am new to the blogging forum and find it quite relaxing. Especially when I need to vent or rant and rave. So without further ado a poem I find highly insightful and comforting:

Because He Simply Cared

By: Carolyn S. Hedrick

Catch not the whisp of flirty eyes

That open wide to gaze

Look deep inside the unfulfilled soul

To see what lies in rage.

The wants and needs all huddled there

All longing to be free

To find their place in life and then

Just let myself be me.

To look upon the other side

And find what I may dare

To find him looking into me

The one, that really cared.

And when I find this to be true

And finally come to pass

I'll put all else in it's proper place

And humbly tip my glass.

A Toast to him that has done

What no one else has dared

He understood the inner me

Because he simply cared.

Thank you Sue for sharing this with me and allowing me to post this on my first blog. We go back some 40 years and I am so grateful you are here to share these wonderful words of inspiration with me. I look forward to 40 more!